True, but I kept two and got another 6 adopted out (two litters, I have one cat from each, and there were some losses, as these were barn cats)

And all of them turned out happy and friendly expect the ones I kept : /

As did several half siblings (there’s like 3 baby daddies in the group and 4 mamas, so the kittens were consistent across about a dozen litters - melanistic tabbies (voids with stripes) gray tabbies (gray with stripes) and regular tabbies

Since nobody else seems inclined to share the deep darks of their life, I will.

Due to a childhood of neglect, I tend to ruin baby animals left in my care. Not because I want to, but because I’m not nurturing at all. Not even a slight tiny bit. I keep them alive and unharmed just fine, that I can do. But that’s about all I’ve got.

I’ve had a few cats that I’ve acquired as kittens and by the time they hit adulthood they hate everything. The first time I didn’t realize it was me, and I had a cranky bitch who hated everyone and everything but me… for 16 years… after the last time I know it must be me. Because cats from the same litter went to my partner and theirs are super nice and friendly, and mine… one gets so upset seeing other strange cats that she misplaces her aggression and goes after her sister until her sister pees herself running away. It fucking sucks, and I wish I was better for them.

The dog I got as a puppy was poorly socialized, as well, but I wasn’t able to keep her past the first year (pitbull in an apartment, but she was just friendly as hell, not mean or aggressive)

My quail were about ready to see me as mama, same with the chickens, even nestling in my hands to fall asleep, and now they don’t like me… (that one is probably a reach-down problem, they like me a lot better when I reach in at them instead of down from above, but still)

So except where necessary, like farm animals, I avoid getting babies. I’m sterile for this reason as well. I don’t want to pass on my fucked up neglected childhood, even to animals.

I’ve tried really hard, and sampled many brands, but other than soy in lattes sometimes, I can’t stand plant based milk in my coffee. Some of it is fine stuff for other uses, or even just drinking, but it just doesn’t come close to the flavor I like as part of my wake up routine. And if my coffee isn’t good it sours my whole day, just a bit.

I’d love to have something that tastes like milk and feels like milk and does the job of milk, but is vegan.

Thanks!

Could someone with better search skills or knowledge of their discography link to their music for me? I’ve heard it’s good but I legitimately can’t find anything but news videos when I go looking (I don’t use any music handler platforms)

Welp.

I watched several videos in addition to those and feel both better and not, I do understand the simplified analogies in the linked stuff, and they are helpful, as were some of the related content.

I kinda sorta understand the technical stuff, sort of. I’m not in a tech field or anything…

I’m going to keep it there regardless of the negative hype because you never know when I’ll need others to do the same. Im not doing anything wrong so it’s whatever.

I’m up to 10 :)

Thanks for this!

Well I spent the time between when I posted and when you replied looking into various things related to tor, legality, and snowflake more specifically, as well as a bit after your reply since you gave me a couple extra things to look into… (like if there’s a risk of running alongside self-host software like Plex and jellyfin, I didn’t find anything about it so I sort of assume it’s fine…?)…

I didn’t see anything overly bad other than if you yourself use tor, maybe, so took the plunge and… have had a whole two connections already, so yay, I’m a snowflake!

I feel slightly better about myself, like when I started using BOINC crowdsource computing for research in the early noughties. :)

I’m willing to do this but frankly tor intimidates me big time. I don’t know anything about it other than……. Yep that’s it.

I read through the mastodon post, and the project page, and cumulatively I didn’t get any answers that, like, make me feel better.

I assume this is a dark web node sort of thing? Is it safe for me to run the browser extension (idk shit about docker and don’t really want to learn rn), like I’m not putting a target on myself or anything? If yes to question 1, but no to question 2, what does put a target?

This is always what my YouTube homepage looks like because I only access it in ghostery browser, using a ghost tab by default (like incognito/private/inprivate, but because ghostery, also blocks tracking, cookies, etc.)

I typically completely close the browser between links (it’s my default link handling browser for Lemmy), so it gets reset frequently enough to have nothing on home if I actually navigate there.

I don’t use it sparingly and I also have a jar of bacon grease.

The day I learned to put a coffee filter or paper towel in the jar under the lid ring to filter the hot oil? Game changer.

My grocery store carries “bulk bacon” which is packs of low quality fatty bacon that’s great for cooking. I buy that sometimes and the grease off a pound fills a pint jar about halfway, sometimes more.

If left alone, it grows unimaginably large and towering, imposing, shading out smaller things that are useful for diversity and overall system integrity. The only option to prevent the overgrowth and strangulation of positive things is to constantly prune the apathy back before it gets too big. A truly sisyphean undertaking.

I think of it like rain forest canopy trees.

I feel like the solution to this is more Luigi, tbh.

People would be less selfish if they didn’t feel so hopeless.

If there’s fake ones and people show up for them because they saw them on the map, are they fake?

I saw a depressing comic like that… civilization has collapsed, no humans left, and the invisible hand of the market keeps raising prices.

I tried to find it for you but there are a lot of invisible hand of the market comics and I’m not good enough to find it :(

That’s what H1B visas are for! Then they get dumb labor, and cheap skilled slaves beholden to them to keep their visa and thus life intact!

(Wish I were joking, but this is all facts)

Hey nuh uh, I did all that having been diagnosed at 5, thank you.

Stop redirecting them. Make it cost them.

Tell your neighbors to file an “it arrived late” or “it didn’t arrive” complaint. Get two and send one back. Their fault for being shit companies.

If something is delivered to you by mistake, it’s not your responsibility to fix the mistake, you just got free stuff.

If it goes through USPS, it might be a federal offense to open stuff delivered via USPS, but is that true of third party parcel delivery? Almost certainly not, because USPS is a government org and those third party shit delivery companies aren’t…

So now any package that’s delivered to me by anyone other than USPS… it’s mine now, and I open it to see if I want whatever trash my neighbors are buying.

I used to try to fix the problem… but then I realized it’s NOT MY PROBLEM.

Thanks!

This isn’t depression… I mean that’s probably some of it, but not the bulk of it. I’m actually in a much better headspace now than I’ve been for the last 15 years or so. It turns out my baseline happiness is that of a relentless optimist. Everything is going to be good, even though it really isn’t right now sort of thing. I have zero basis for that assertion, because my life is a complete shitshow, but I won part of the gene lottery on that one.

I was dx adhd at 5 (35 years ago) and pretty sure there’s a heavy dose of autism in there that wasn’t picked up because I’m AFAB and old, and getting screened for that now serves no purpose unless I want to be in a “work camp”… (American)

The problem is object permanence. Most of the time I don’t even remember I have a treadmill, and when I do, like when I see the box, I never want to set the damned thing up. It’s not pressing or important, nor is it something I want to do, so it doesn’t get done.

I just built a chicken coop tho, so I’m capable of doing things I need to do, just not things I should, but would rather not tbh, do.

I bought a treadmill and stationary bike a few years ago… weight training is less of a concern for me than cardio and getting in shape to use a bike as transport… also the treadmill is meant to make VR less nauseating for me, and I haven’t wanted to play VR since getting it because it’s so nauseating…?

I’ve used the stationary bike a few dozen times, but the treadmill is still in the box.

I want to use them… well no, I want to want to use them…. Which means I don’t.